Bozoma Saint John of RHOBH Candidly Shares Her Struggles with Pregnancy Loss: “It Hasn’t Been Easy”

Bozoma “Boz” Saint John is opening up about her past pregnancy loss.

On the latest episode of the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills, Saint John, 48, shared details about her fertility journey. Saint John currently has one daughter, Lael, 15, who she shares with her late husband Peter Saint John.

“The experiences of pregnancy have not been easy for me,” she said. “I got pregnant unexpectedly with my first daughter, named Eve. Five months into my pregnancy, I discovered that I had early stages of preeclampsia, a disease that creates high blood pressure and starts to attack your pregnancy.”

“My baby didn’t survive,” said Saint John, who was admitted into labor and delivery for high blood pressure at six-and-a-half months. “Two months after I lost Eve, I decided that I was meant to be a mother and wanted to have another baby.”

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Now, in her current relationship with boyfriend Keely Watson, the reality television star is thinking about the possibility of having another child.

“Because I’m a mature woman, you would assume I have to get checked out to see if I’m still viable to be able to carry a baby and Keeley’s ready,” she said during the episode. “We haven’t met with the fertility doctor yet.”

Saint John described the prospect of having another child as “scary.” Saint John described her pregnancy with Lael as “horrific,” adding that she felt “terror” during every doctor’s appointment after losing her first child.

“I would have to squeeze Peter’s hand because, what if?” Saint John said of her late husband. “I am 15 years older than the last [time] I had this issue. I need some assurances, and I don’t know how to get that.”

Bozoma Saint John. 

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Despite everything that happened, Saint John is proud to be a mother to her 15-year-old daughter. The two recently revived a special holiday tradition more than a decade after her late husband passed away in 2013. The RHOBH star shared a post on Instagram of her and her daughter ice skating.

The proud mom explained in her post, “Lael loves to ice skate,” as she shared footage of the two skating across the rink. She also included a photo of Peter ice skating with Lael when she was younger, adding, “It was an activity that she and her dad loved and when he died she wanted me to take her.”

“It was hard for me,” she continued. “But it brought her so much joy. Shortly after, we moved to LA so we didn’t get a chance to spend Christmas in NY anymore… Until now.”